The torment of not finding the correct husband

I am writing this post to my future self. I hope when you read this you are in better place that you always wanted and most especially with someone you could have not think possibly to have. I am awake and this is another moment in my life that would make me realized that I am wrong. The truth is I want to share this to women who is decieved by kingdom spouse or on the loop of finding the one. My mistake is that I have loved a man who did not invest in me. I thought that he was annointed but found out he is not contented with me. The truth reallu hurts when one day it does not make sense anymore.  I do not want to marry a pastor or have a relationship with a pastor. There is a fine line of difference of spiritual maturity.

I was blind to see that. I tolerated too much and did not realized the heart is wrong.  I do not want to mention his name but i do wish him well in his life.  Sooner or later I do not know if I will ever get married.

All I know that there is too much that has happened for me being involved with a pentacostal pastor. Its better to run the race of faith for now at least for me. Than being crazy to find a spouse. I would still stick to a christian man with values. Also be nice and act like a christian girl to a non christian man. Lets extend grace to people and let us respect their theology about God. i will never be sad about on what happened. Accept and move on. Remember that you prayed for a husband and not someone who just take you for granted. Also do not compare yourself or be with a man who compare your theological belief to a different denomination. 

Remember that clothes does not define your salvation but Jesus Christ Blood on your being. He has gone for you only and no curses or human judgement can take that away from you. Stay committed and eventuañlly you will see that you have won this moment.